Becoming Me Again

I’ve spent my life in shapes not mine,

Bending, breaking, crossing lines.

To be the one they’d choose, I’d mold,

Hoping love would then unfold.

It started young, in a house so cold,

Where love felt distant, hearts felt old.

I learned to be quiet, not take up space,

A child seeking love in a loveless place.

With each friend, each love, I lost my way,

Gave parts of me so they would stay.

I used to dance, to sing, to shine,

But bit by bit, I lost what was mine.

I became the one they wanted me to be,

But when I needed love, they'd let me be.

I tried to fill the voids in them,

But found myself alone again.

Who am I now, behind these walls?

A shadow that fades when darkness calls.

I remember the spark, the light, the fire,

The girl who once was filled with desire.

Then I feel a love divine,

A voice that whispers, "You are mine."

A daughter of a King above,

Worthy of an endless love.

I remember now, I see the way,

I love to dance, to sing, to say—

I am enough, I am light,

A beacon burning through the night.

I am loved, I am worthy, I am whole,

A heart that’s learning to be bold.

In God’s love, I find my ground,

A place where I am truly found.

-Heartfully Nicole